I would like to be happy, and just settle down and get over the desire for a boyfriend. Mexican guys have always just made my heart jump, but the thought of settling down with an American white guy is so disheartening.

The trouble is, I´m an American woman. I´m from Florida originally, and I have Irish ancestry (I would rather have been Irish than american). I feel like my chances with a Mexican guy are slim or non-existent. I feel that society expects me to marry or date ´´my own kind´´ (white American guys) but the thought makes my heart sink.

I absolutely can´t stand being an American and would give anything to be some other nationality. I can´t change it and I am having an impossible time accepting it because I don´t want to be lonely or bite the bullet and marry some guy I don´t want. I feel so trapped!

Everyone thinks of USA as the land of opportunity but I feel like it closes doors for me. I could be wrong but it seems like American women are looked upon as undesirable. Sometimes I wonder if even American men all prefer non-American girls. I look at my Mexican friends with their husbands and my heart just hurts with envy... it´s just so unfair. I know that being American is NOT something to be proud of and I´m not, but it´s not my fault I was born in USA.

I am in NO WAY racist, but I´ve observed that in couples where the guy is Mexican, so is the girl. I feel like my chances of attracting a guy like that are VERY slim.

I would never mock someone´s nationality but I have lived in different countries. I suppose I´m different from most Americans because I see USA in a different light. I would be happier in a different country than in USA. Other countries have problems, but they have freedoms and opportunities Americans don´t. There´s no great, or ideal, country.