And I also have a type and I don’t know why!

They all have

•Dark brown hair

•Dark brown eyes

• Curvy

• Early 30s.

• Feel sympathetic to my current terrible situation and tradgedy.

• Have tried to help me with my grief.

I’ve only had a crush on one of my boyfriends before but he cheated on me. While I had feelings for one of those women I had a boyfriend but I couldn’t transfer my love from her to him. I REALLY WANT TO! I want to love men not women. Nothing wrong with being gay it’s just a lot harder to be lesbian. More suffering and more in reasonable hatred would be directed towards me. Any way I could change this?

I just want to take benzodiazepines and never come off them!