How do you deal with being the ´´wrong´´ nationality?

I was born in the USA but never identified with the culture. my heart just isn´t in American culture... I have studied and taught EFL in Mexico and Spain and I felt a sense of belonging there that I never felt in the USA.

I am so afraid I´ll never be happy. I absolutely can´t stand being an American and know in my heart I wasn´t meant to be American. My problem is that I really think Mexican guys are AMAZING. I would give absolutely anything to be Hispanic so I could date or marry a Mexican guy. I get that i can´t change my nationality but it drives me crazy. I would really like to have a boyfriend but if I were to have a boyfriend or marry, it would have to be an American guy. I´m not racist but they just don´t fill that void in my heart. It just tortures me to want something (a latino boyfriend) that I can never have.

I understand that a relationship between an american girl and a Mexican guy could never work and that the family would treat me like an outsider, that a mexican guy is just not an option for me.

However, I feel like I really have the heart and soul of a Hispanic person and the thought of settling down with an american guy makes my heart sink. I would be so unhappy.

I am having a hard time accepting that I CAN´T have a Mexican guy as a boyfriend or husband, and I feel stuck. What to do?

Update:

I can´t stand living in USA and would love to move abroad for good.

I realize that Mexico and spain are different, I lived in both places. I still identify with both cultures because of what they DO have in common.

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