My deepest sympathies. My heart just breaks for you and your baby. I was older when my husband passed away yet no very old - I was 42. I attended a grief support group for six weeks which helped a lot. So, I would encourage you to attend such a group if you can find one in your area. There were people of all ages who losses were all kinds of family members and close friends. That will definitely help you in many ways. One of the way we celebrated our loved one was with balloons on which we wrote messages. You can do as many or as few as you wish. They need to be filled with helium so they will float up into the skies or heavens. You can pour your heart out to him and wish him a happy birthday. Some people have special church service or gather some friends and family for a candle light vigil where people can talk and share their memories - some will have even funny things to say. I once went to a park and a bridge where no one else was and sat on the grass and talked to him. Although we can't physically see our loved one, they are in our hearts. You could write a love letter to him and keep it as long as you wish and one day when you get to a point in your life when things are feeling much better, you may choose to burn it, not to forget but to send the message via the smoke to him. I hope that one of these things maybe able to help you. I just wish I could reach out and give you such a big hug. The pain will always be with you but you will start to learn to live with it and it may become a little lighter a burden each day. God bless you and your baby