My mother's tone with me has been cold and clipped. She doesn't look me in the eye when she speaks to me. She calls on my other siblings affectionately, but not me. I hate it. It keeps me up at night. I cry myself to sleep every night. She is the only person I love in the world. The only one. And she's cold to me.

I run to the bathroom in the day cause I need to cry. My throat is always sore because it's strained from the soundless screaming at night and crying. How can I deal with this? I'm crying right now. I just..don't know! I hate it. I just.. Want a way to deal with it. To stop feeling the sadness. To stop the urge to cry.

She accused me of something I NEVER WOULD EVER IN MY ENTIRE LIFE AND AFTER DO. When I tell her that, she says "I know how you are. Don't try to play me."

That makes me cry more. She doesn't even trust me. I don't know what to do.

Just a couple days ago we were fine. Then two weeks before she did the same thing. It's like a time-bomb. I'm so careful about what I say around her cause I don't want her to hate me. I don't want her to hate me. I don't know what to do.

Please. I love my mother so much. More than anything in the world.