I’m so indifferent about what even my closest friend’s/family are doing. I want to care but can’t and I’m jealous of those who are thoughtful and ask questions/do things for people.

Ex: my friend congratulated our other best friend on graduating college and venmoed her money as a gift. I’m mad at said friend for not reminding me of the graduation or that she sent a gift so I could as well because now I feel like an a**. I know it’s my fault for not remembering or caring but I still feel upset she didn’t tell me and I’m irrationally jealous she is a more thoughtful person.

Anyways ‘why is it so hard for me to care about people’s lives?’ is my main question here.