I need help from someone, I have had past problems including being hospitalized 2 times for the same reason. I have also tried to commit suicide 3 times that I know of. I have a constant feeling of having people around me and I can’t concentrate on any one sound for a long period of time with out feeling really sick and angry.
I experience blackout that last from mins to days and I when I come out of my zone I am usually just sick. About 6 yrs ago I woke up in a wooded area covered by blood and I wasn’t injured so I went home and took a shower and went to the police station and they admitted me for a evaluation but I lied my way out of it.
This morning I found some rope, knife and a head band in a bad tucked underneath my mattress I check them really good and there was nothing on them!
I don’t want to enter a hospital but I don’t want to go jail neither.
Help any ideas?
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go to a good doctor. maybe you are having seizures that cause you to black out. always the first thing a person should check is physical problems. if you are healthy physically, then you can see a doctor to determine if your problems have a psychological component.
by the way, you know life is a gift and we only get one. I don't want to turn loose of mine one SECOND before I have to. I have had horrible things happen from time to time, but still I love life. The suicide thing is definitely not a good plan. I urge you to realize how priceless your life is and not ever try suicide again. There are so many things I want to do...don't you feel that way too?
If you do feel compelled to commit suicide, I recommend the old fashioned time-proven method of old age.
Best wishes to you dear...get a doctor and you will get some answers so you can feel better.
i can't think of anything you can do. a psychiatrist may be able to help you and possibly diagnose a reason as to why you are having blackouts and what these symptoms mean. considering what you have described, jail would not be a good place for you to be. seek a psychiatrist, however i wouldn't tell him/her right off the bat about waking up in the middle of the forest, nor about the rope, knife and headband. you may have a known mental disorder that has a clinical means of suppression, or a way of working through it. i am not a psychiatrist, and i have never been to one, but i think if anyone could help you they could. if that just isn't an option then you might want to figure out what is the same every time you come out of your zone and get sick. if you can figure out what triggers your sickness and blackouts you can possibly avoid those things. this is something that i am sure a psychiatrist could help you do, however i am sure that some people can do this on their own.
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I would worry about getting help period. go to a shrink, go to a patient live in center, anything. but you have serious problems - you probably need medication and a lot of guidence to get back on your feet. Dont joke around your might be a threat to yourself or a threat to others. find help now before you really do end up in jail or worse
Wow... That's... That's bad. That's really bad. You either need some serious medicine or a mental institution, unless you want to see what people post on here because you're joking. In which case, I hope lots of people freak out for you so you can laugh your head off. If not, then, go see your doctor. You are a threat to those around you, seriously. Best of luck, or best of laughs, I can't figure out which. *Please let it be laughs, please...*
If you're being serious:
You might not want to get into trouble, but if what you say is true, wouldnt you want to know whats wrong? and stop the trouble from reoccurring?
Of course you don't want to go to hospital or jail.
But then you want to get "well" don't you.
Maybe getting well, means you have to go somewhere.
Give it a chance, it may help you.
Counseling, psychiatrist-do you have access to mental health?
check yourself into a loony-bin