I know it sounds strange, but I need to make my fiancé fall out of love with me, without him realizing it.

Please don't judge, this situation is insane but I'm doing my best.

I have been with my fiancé for almost six years. Sex is intensely painful for me. I can't afford the doctor, and I make too much money to get government assistance. We rarely have sex because of the pain, but he has a very high sex drive. He is considering the idea of bringing another woman into our home. He says I would be "number one", his spoiled princess and the most important. But he would also care for this other woman and have sex with her. I want him to be happy but I can't live that way.

He says if I left him a large chunk would be missing from his life. So I want him to gradually fall out of love with me so it won't hurt him when I disappear.

I can't expect him to spend his life celibate, but I also can't endure the man I love having sex with another woman.