Okay. I've been chatting to a girl for a year and a half now. She's English and 18 and I'm Egyptian and 19. I'm an abnormal Egyptian because of my thoughts on culture, society, politics, and religion. They make it hard to relate to anyone here because Egypt is a deeply traditional country. We talked casually for the first year, and at times argued about her ex-boyfriend, who is 7 years older (25 or 26 now) and who first had sex with her when she was 14 (2 years underage) and who she was still spending nights with at that time. Let's call him Hank. Hank is a jobless high school dropout who gets drunker than a fiddler's ***** every weekend and texts her to come over. Otherwise our conversations were sophisticated. In February we started really liking each other, and we've been in what we consider a relationship in-waiting since.

To be fair, I haven't been completely faithful either. I have an embarrassing addiction to cybersex and I must have done it with over 20 girls since February. If I could have done something in real life here behind her back I probably would have too, but sex is a major taboo and girls who lose their virginity have trouble getting married (most Egyptian men are primitive). But I feel that even so, she did much more than I did. The way she kept cheating with Hank alone was flagrant and disgusting, and she went on a date with a middle-aged man she met online in June besides, and got drunk with him and kissed and necked and petted him. She had a second date with him that she cancelled the day she told me about seeing Hank in May. I'm just like, why? And why so much?

I just don't feel that way about anyone else and I think I'd only hurt a girl if I made her think I did. I think it's the same for her. She isn’t in love with Hank or the old guy. It was only physical. I know that. If she was she wouldn't have stayed with me. But it really distresses me all the same.

Right now she wants to convict Hank for statutory rape and although it's been 2 and a half years since she turned 16 we have pretty compelling evidence against him. This is a major development because until late June she always defended him, while now she says she hates him and tells me anything I want to know about him, gives me his details, shows me his texts and her replies (we said she should keep in touch with him because she might get an inadvertent confession), etc. She would never have done this in the past. Maybe too little too late (it took a year and a half) but I thought it was something.

She was very emotional about the cheating. There was a lot of heavy crying on the phone, and when we chatted voice. I'm really upset with her, sometimes more than other times, and I always feel tired and depressed. I feel like she breaks and gives up easily, she can never take the heat of her own mistakes, and she has no sense of priority. I mean right when we need to talk the most, she can't because she's sightseeing (it was all planned a long time earlier, she'd lose a lot of money borrowed from her mother if she went home now, and she'll be home in less than a week, but still). I still have feelings for her and she loves me. Is it really worth one last shot? What should I do? I don't know what to do anymore.