Okay, I would really appreciate no negative comments because I’m hurting at this time. I’m looking for what I can do next...

My boyfriend and I of 5 and a half years have been going through a couple of issues. A couple of weeks ago he was out with friends, his friend was getting with someone and he can’t remember the night and he himself ended up kissing somebody. Somebody I knew saw them. He then went back to stay at the flat and said he just remembers waking up in his friends flat and he was by himself in the living room sleeping. He left immediately because he had work. He was extremely hungover all day.

When I told him someone seen him and he still cannot remember. He’s disgusted in himself, can’t believe he’s hurt me and done that behind me back. He’s cried to his mum all week about it and he’s not a very emotional guy. We met to speak and he dead told me he cannot remember and he’s extremely sorry about it. I told him I’m willing to move on from this because nothing has happened like this before but he told me I’m too forgiving and because of a few ‘white lies he has told In the past about completely different issues he feels like I deserve more and he thinks what we had before is completely broken now and will never be the same.

The thing is, I believe how sorry he is and I am willing to move on but his guilt is eating him up right now. I don’t want to lose him and I feel so helpless, what should I do?