I feel really terrible about this..

I attended a ‘girls night IN party’ , which was similar to a bachelorette party, because the hostess called a sales person from a sex store to talk about and sell some sex products. Everyone was getting really drunk to enjoy it. It was one shot after another. ..The hostess was making sure everybody drank a lot. ..In any case.. I got so drunk that by the time the night was over, two of us got really sick. In any case, after the lady did her presentation, everyone was buying something from the catalog, and I got a dildo, which I regretted the next . The gifts were sent to the hostess’ home (she lives there with her boyfriend ). Last night, I found out from one of my close male friends that he knows what I purchased with all the details. It makes me think that either the boyfriend was opening all the gifts and looking..or the hostess opened them and was talking about it..

I feel so humiliated now! I am afraid that the information was passed around, among in the circle of male friends. I will not be able to look them in the eyes the same way, thinking that they know and afraid of what they think of me. Do they think I am a slut? Or that I am horny or that I am ‘easy’ since I “need” a dildo. I mean, I don’t even use the thing.. I regretted it ever since the next day, when I sobered up.. Is it a turn on for them??? Will they ever look at me as simply a friend again??? Would really like to hear men’s thoughts on this, please…