I’m 14 and since I started my 8th grade year I’ve been noticing I for some reason feel scared and nervous and like I need to defend myself 24/7 at school and I just get so nervous when I think about or see the school I want to cry and throw up every morning but when I was younger about 6th grade I had lots of friends and was social coming into middle school I separated myself from friends I wasn’t into at all well anyway in my second semester of 8th grade I told my parents how I felt my dad said no your normal and that’s it because my sister suffers from anxiety,adhd,add,depression and is bipolar my mom took me to my doctor she said I had social anxiety so I got homeschooled the rest of 8th grade I didn’t do well I wasn’t thinking of my future i started off this year ok in 9th grade I did notice there are many more people here there’s over 4,000 kids at my school now all those feelings I had in middle school are coming back but even worse starting semester 2 of 9th grade this year has gotten to me and it’s only been 3 days I woke up at night thinking about the next day I felt I couldn’t breathe I was almost shaking I wanted to cry and I felt like nervous or scared I’m not exactly sure I can’t explain why I’ve lost interest in everything and I can not talk to anyone or walk In to class without wanting to vomite and he doesn’t understand hI’m insecure and I need to lose weight I need to defend myself I need to grow a set of balls but really he’s just hurting me so much more