I got out of the Marines in 2018 and had a rocky transition since. I went back home to my small town, (first mistake) my plans failed, ran out of money, can only find factory work which depresses the **** out of me, and have joined the Navy reserve last year. Ever since I got out, I noticed that I just seem to despise people at first glance except anyone military affiliated or so it seems. I know I haven't been the same at all since. I've job hopped like crazy, still don't give two ***** about school, don't believe in 'networking' worth a damn, and don't fit in with my family at all no more. After being bummed from my poor family for cash whenever I do have it or my parents acting my ******* bosses still. I realize more and more how much I hated my home life from the get go, only this time I've changed to the extreme. I've gotten to be a heartless asshole it seems. All I do anymore is fight and argue with 'em.
Hell, I just about decided to go to a homeless shelter just to get the **** away from home until I got ahold of a veteran assisting program. Glad to have my own place and a 100 miles away from them *****, just not happy still and don't fit in. I've grown so emotionally numb I can't feel anything anymore. A bar visit at the end of work is the only thing that keeps me together.
Anybody else had these problems or still is? What you guys think? Going back active duty don't seem bad no more but I'd like to hear others thoughts.
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In all sincerity, it sounds like what you really need is a trip to a mental health center. There's a lot of anger, sadness, resentment and depression that I'm pulling from your words. The VA offers mental health assistance. Please avail them of it so you can get back on your feet and live a happy, productive life. The military is not the place for those who have mental health issues; it only make it worse. Trust me. I watched my husband go through this. The military almost drove him to suicide.
Go back on active duty and regain your dignity. It’s hard to leave an honorable profession and adjust. This time just embrace the suck and don’t listen to the griping ninnies in the platoon. They’ll mess with your head after a while.
Speaking as a former Navy Airborne Electronic Warfare Officer and Vietnam Vet with diagnose PTSD I see a lot of the classic symptoms in your statement, particular the emotional numbing.
Contact the nearest VA Mental Health Department and let them kniw you need screening because you believe you are experiencing symptoms that seem consistent of PTSD.
Incidentally, I went through Navy Aviation Officer Candidate School for 14 weeks under the loving care of SSGT L.E. Wills, USMC.
In the year I first applied, out of 50,000 who did apply only 290 of us earned our wings.
Seeking assistance is not an act of weakness, it is just the first step to becoming stronger.
Semper Fi.
getting back in AD is pretty much impossible these days unless you qualify for 18X in the Army or your Marine MOS is critically undermanned. prepare to lose at least one paygrade either way.
you have the resources of the VA for mental health assistance. use it.
When you are in the s#it, all you want to do is get out. When you are out, all you can think about is getting back in. Go career, it's the only place you get to kill your enemies and blow s#it up.
I don't know should you