I am only 18 years old, I live with my family and I´m studying. My day is basically from home to school then home again. I don´t have friends, well I have, but I dont hang with them after school. During my free time, I am talking to my boyfriend, who by the way lives in different country. He is very nice and is very loving, I cant ask for any better guy than I have, problem is he is not physically there for me.

Anyways, so I kept on planning my future with my guy, I kept on thinking what it would be like to move to his country and live together. It´s good to plan your future, but I do it too much that I am very unhappy with me-right now. The only time I could be happy is when I´m talking to my guy or when I´m at the gym working out.

I´ve got allowance but I dont spend it, I kept on saving, thinking that it is for my FUTURE. Like when it was my birthday, I prefer to have the cash instead of a big celebration, because I thought I could use some cash for the FUTURE.

I really need some help, I´m so unhappy eventhough I am living in someones dream. I can afford thing if I would like to, I´ve got a very loving boyfriend, but why cant I be happy? What should I do? And no, I dont think I´m ugly or fat, I´ve got good confidence with myself, I just dont know how to be happy. Any help/word of advice anyone?