This is sort of complicated,

Read carefully,

I have a big brother, in his 20-30's.

He is married and has three kids.

One is about my age ( 12-14) one is about 5 and one is 4.

My brother literally cherished his little family and i was happy because me and the eldest kid have a nice little friendship, she is the sister i never had. My brother used to always go on about how his family meant the world to him and he would always say he would never want to lose them. Now we are currently living in a different country, my mum, dad and i, so we were not there to witness everything but we have had contact with my other brothers and sisters which live in our house in england while we are in this country.

My brother has left his house.

Simply because he 'couldnt be bothered'.

Now he is texting some other girl and i am having a meltdown thinking of all my poor nieces and sister in law. I am mostly worried about losing contact with them all, they were so good in my life and they were just....right. I couldnt live without them. I think my brother is an idiot.

But im not there to tell him that.

Everytime my mum tries to talk to him he turns into a stubborn child.

I need help.

I cannot help but think every second about whats going on.

I especially am worried about the little girls.

They never asked to be born.

I need to get over it, live my life.

But i cant.

Help.